Shadow dancin’ trailer trash young one
White in skin and dirty soul
Could’ve taken everything, met your goal
Could’ve had the world
And all you had to do
Yeah all you had to do
Is everything that moves

Your trilogy never had a happy ending
But there’s one for every heart you’ve been bending
All these shadows you’ve been laying
All these souls that you’ve been playing
Can’t you hear what I’ve been saying
To you

Waterlick Road never looked so sorry
Since it took you in its fold
Should’ve taken everything, made it cold
Could’ve had the world
And all you had to do
Yeah all you had to do
Is take it in your groove

Your trilogy never had a happy ending
But there’s one for every heart you’ve been bending
All these shadows you’ve been laying
All these souls that you’ve been playing
Can’t you hear what I’ve been saying
To you

Everyone you lied to
Everyone who tried to
Make you into something
True
God knows it’s true

Your trilogy never had a happy ending
But there’s one for every heart you’ve been bending
All these shadows you’ve been laying
All these souls that you’ve been playing
Can’t you hear what I’ve been saying
To you

Wind-blown rain
Runs angry down my face
Runnin’ like a race
It leads me out

Goin’ insane
Talkin’ like I know you
I’d love to show you
The way home

So say you think you might
Remember how to say you care
Tell me you might know me
Tell me what you’d like to share
Tell me you’ve been thinking
Tell me what you’ve got to give
Tell me how you’re movin’ on…

Tell me how I’m s’posed to live
With wind-blown rain

Wind-blown rain
Runs angry down my face
Memories, in case
It leads me down

So say you think you might
Remember how to say you care
Tell me you might know me
Tell me what you’d like to share
Tell me you’ve been thinking
Tell me what you’ve got to give
Tell me how you’re movin’ on…

Tell me how I’m s’posed to live
With wind-blown rain

Tell me you’ve been thinking
Tell me how I’m s’posed to live
Tell me you might know me
Tell me how I’m s’posed to live

Tell me how you’re movin’ on
Remember how to say you care
Say you think you might
Tell me what you’d like to share
With wind-blown rain

Tell me how I’m s’posed to live
With wind-blown rain

Rainy day dream
Wonder if you dream of me
I shouldn’t really care
Just get out of my hair
Seems you’re goin’ wrong
Take you, turn you back around
If it were not the end
I’d bend, I’d bend, I’d bend

So baby call my bluff
Test me and tempt me
I’ve had enough
Of the lies you’ve been sharing
Share them elsewhere
‘Cause I’m not your toy now

Rainy day dream
Thought you really cared for me
I could’ve played the fool
When you played it all so cool
But now you’re losing ground
Runnin’ out of lies to tell
Won’t you tell me how it feels
With tables turned, they’ve turned

So baby call my bluff
Test me and tempt me
I’ve had enough
Of the lies you’ve been sharing
Share them elsewhere
‘Cause I’m not your toy now

It’s morning in December
And the frost is getting bold
It’s so far beyond the summer
And the air’s been getting cold
But where you are it’s colder
Wrapped in the way you live your life
And your pangs of deep remembrance
Cut into me like a knife

It’s morning in December
And it’s tiring how you live
You take, and take, and take
Is it so hard for you to give?
But here, inside my silence
I can see right through your lies
And when you say that you still love me
I’m not dumb enough to cry, because

No matter how you try to get away
Your conscience still will haunt you
No matter what you do, it’s always there
No matter where you go
These shadows follow
In love and hatred everything is fair

It’s morning in December
And I’ve known you for so long
But every day you come to haunt me
So I write another song
And where you are this singing
Sounds like you crying in the night
Yeah, time and cosmic justice always
Somehow always sets things right, and

No matter how you try to get away
Your conscience still will haunt you
No matter what you do, it’s always there
No matter where you go
These shadows follow
In love and hatred everything is fair

All the liars and the lovers
They all played me just the same
They pressed me and they pushed me
And they thought they won the game
But you know it’s true
And now I’m tellin’ you
Ooh, the fact is they got nothin’ now
And now I’ve got the truth

It’s a game that’s full of cheaters
God knows I’ve met my share
They may pretty but they’ll use you
It may hurt but they won’t care
But cheatin’, yeah
Cheatin’ never wins
Ooh, the fact is they got nothin’ now
And now I’ve got the truth

Ooh, you know it wasn’t easy
Fighting darkness with the light
And the honesty I gave to them
Didn’t make it all feel right
But what goes around
It always comes around
Ooh, the fact is they got nothin’ now
And now I’ve got the truth

So here’s a song for all you haters
Who tried to break this weary soul
Tried to use me and abuse me
To make yourselves feel whole
So what can I do
But sit here and tell you
Ooh, the fact is you got nothin’ now
And now I’ve got the truth

You’re back again
Callin’ people, askin’ for my number
New instant-message on my screen
Same old scene

I know that you expect reply
Although I might have left you dry
And if I told you that I’d cared
It’d be a lie

You’re back again, Amistha
You’re knocking at my door
With your cheap Hilfiger sweaters
And your icy ghetto core
You may haunt me with your likeness
You may ring within these walls
But throughout the shadowed silence
And your tricks, I know them all

Your call may give me shivers
Your name on caller ID
Your alias calling softly
From the IM’s on my screen
Time has killed the feelings
But they cannot dull the pain
And every time you call me
I still feel it just the same

Amistha
I’m not a slave to you anymore
Amistha
Amistha

You’re back again
Certain parts of all these pasts
I can’t let go, the die are cast
But it’s fading fast

You’re back again, Amistha
You’re knocking at my door
With your cheap Hilfiger sweaters
And your icy ghetto core
You may haunt me with your likeness
You may ring within these walls
But throughout the shadowed silence
And your tricks, I know them all

The memories inside me
Yeah, they come up now and then
But your power has been waning
And I cannot pinpoint when
I could ignore you like the animals
That in your hearts you are
Though I could not have been like you
And come quite so far

Amistha
I’m not a slave to you anymore
Amistha
Amistha

Call me crazy ’cause I didn’t expect you
Out of the blue and tellin’ me it’s true
Expecting me to fall in love with you
Rainbow brownie

So you may have been a broken soul
But all that pain you harbored inside
Girl, it wasn’t mine
And all your powerless frustrations
Could’ve broken me in time

But before your lies came and killed me
I cut you off and tore you down from your
Freshman-year New Yorker pedastal
And put you in the dirt where you belong

And all your species, all your kind
From blonde to brunette and beyond
As far as I can be concerned you’re gone
Crawled back in your holes
With your Windows PCs and panty hose
Rainbow brownie
Oh how I wished you’d never set your AIM
On me

At age thirty, you’ll look sixty-three
Or at least you will to me
And every line you fed to trusting souls
Will form a line on your face
Your pruned and tattered beauty
Won’t buy you gullible boys anymore

Well I’m so sorry, all you half-baked prom dates
You played me well, but now the game is won
And the happiness you thought you found
In all our lying, cheating, and sleepin’ around
It’s something that I’ve found
Somewhere else

By a little wayside off of Route 29
Lie all the chances and all the lies
And those fading memories
I’ve finally found my peace in true love
And now I wish you yours…

You know I met her by a sound booth
Brunette, blue eyed beauty
I couldn’t help my fallin’
I always felt her callin’I was a naive and shadowed person
You know I took her to a movie
I couldn’t see it comin’
I should have been a-runnin’

From a half-baked prom date, oohh
Her arms all over someone else
Yeah that half-baked prom date, oohh
Three years of blessed hell

A first love is hard to break
So I must’ve been her eighth cutie
One silent car-ride home
God, she made me feel so alone

She was a half-baked prom date, oohh
Her arms all over someone else
Yeah, that half-baked prom date, oohh
Three years of blessed hell

She was a half-baked prom date, oohh
Her arms all over someone else
Yeah, that half-baked prom date, oohh
Three years of blessed hell
Three years of blessed hell

From the depths of pain I wrote to you
The most vicious words I could muster
Strung together like so many tired songs
I etched just how you made me feel
That desolate feeling

With time and lessons learned, however
I’ve realized the desolate feeling
Is one you shared…

‘Cause you’re as empty as you made me
But I’ve recovered
You’re the loneliness you gave to me
But it’s passed
You’re the pain you made me feel…
That didn’t last—

And now I realize that all this time
Feeling sorry for myself
There’s no sorrier soul than yours

Have you had enough, huh?
Are you tired of hearing me bitch
About the bitches?
Are you tired of hearing me lash out
At those who hurt
Does it make you slightly
Uncomfortable
To realize that you have the power
To break people?
To break me?

Yeah, it does that to me too

So I’m done, I’m tired, I’m through
You win
You have broken this heart many times
But for the first time
You lying inhumans
Have broken my will

But God forgives…
Lucky you

I can’t seem to make sense of this anymore
I can’t seem to make things even out
I can’t seem to understand this feeling
Don’t know what it’s all about
You know I can see all this beauty all around me
I see it all around
Everywhere

But it’s too far to reach
They’re standing too far away
And I’m tired and I don’t know what to say
So I stand here on the outside
Wondering why I waste the time
Wondering why I try

I try to be just what you’ve always wanted
I try to make you happy

“Hey wait, it’s supposed to be a happy song”
I can sing how I want
“Hey wait, you’re supposed to still love me anyway”
Yeah, f### you
“Hey! Don’t be talking like that to me”
Hey! Don’t be lying like that to me
Don’t lie to me
Don’t tell me you never lied to me!
I told you don’t ever lie to me!

And so f### you if you wanted a happy ending
Well f### you if you don’t like angry songs
If you want to hear a happy ending, well
Write it yourself
Write it yourself!
And hope I don’t come in and f### it up
Like you did for me

So call me bitter, I don’t care
Tell me I’ve lost my sweetness
I’m not myself
Tell me what you want, but I’m not stupid
And if I don’t seem to care what you say
It’s okay
Because I’m busy building a wall
Strong enough and tall enough
To keep the inhumans like you…out

I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re lying on your bed
The tears running down your face
I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying

I hope you can’t sleep
I hope you’re lying on your bed
Staring at the bed above you
I hope you can’t sleep
I hope you can’t sleep
I hope you can’t sleep

I hope that your memories
Torment you
Every second that you wake or sleep
Every moment
I hope you remember
Don’t you DARE forget
What you’re doing to me

I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re lying on your bed
The tears running down your face
I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying

Because now you’re just another
One of those bitches
I write these songs about

I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying
I hope you’re crying

I’m tired, I’m tired of being Mr. Nice Guy
Standing by and letting everybody use me
Idly watching them suck the life from me
Well you know what you bastards
It’s my life
And I’m tired of living it to make you happy
I’m tired of living it to make you smile
It’s my life
And damned if I’m going to let you live it anymore

So you want me to be a sweet guy?!
Show me some sugar
So you want me to make you laugh?!
Well you tell me the joke
And you want me to tell you I love you?!
HA! I’ll say it once I hear it
From you

I’m not going to play these games anymore

So you want me to be a sweet guy?!
Show me some sugar
So you want me to make you laugh?!
Well you tell me the joke
And you want me to tell you I love you?!
HA! I’ll say it once I hear it
From you

So you want me to be a sweet guy?!
Show me some sugar
So you want me to make you laugh?!
Well you tell me the joke
And you want me to tell you I love you?!
HA! I’ll say it once I hear it
From you

So I’m a cynic
You people drive me to it
So I’m wrong
Well I have every right
Because after all
You people put me through
How can you even expect me
To believe?

I used to write those foo-foo songs
They’d be sad, and they’d be hurt
But I think it’s time I just got mad

Because you’re inhuman
Each and every one of you
And I’m tired of writing these
“Oh, pity me” songs
Because you don’t have the courage
To tell me the truth

So I’m a cynic
You people drive me to it
I’m finally growing numb to this cold
My eyes are tired and I’ve grown old
But at least in my heart I know
I never did you wrong
No
At least I was honest
All along

You keep your secrets from me
You tell me all your lies
I’m about to crack, but I don’t care
Ha…I’ve cracked before
You know I’m running out of walls
For you people to tear down
I’m running out of heart
For you to break
Leave me alone
F###ing leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone

I’m too tired to sleep
Too angry to dream
Too jaded to trust
Too old to believe
In any of this bulls### love
Anymore

So yeah, keep all your secrets
Yeah, keep all your lies
Tell me what you’re thinking, I don’t care
I know what’s going on
Your claws have dug through my skin
You’re gnawing at the bone
After all I’ve finally
Learned to hate that feeling
Leave me alone
F###ing leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone

I’m too tired to sleep
Too angry to dream
Too jaded to trust
Too old to believe
In any of this bulls### love
Anymore

Too old to believe
In any of this bulls### love
Anymore

Too old to believe
In any of this bulls### love
Anymore

It gets damn tiring
Watching people pretend to care
Use me ’til they’re tired and go away
Watch me tumble down
You’re gonna laugh
You pig, you’re gonna laugh
Gonna laugh ’til you cry!

It gets damn tiring
Same feelings and glances
Push me ’til I crack and go away
Watch it crumble down
You’re gonna laugh
You pig, you’re gonna laugh
Gonna laugh ’til you cry!

You’re nothing to me, bitch
You’re nothing
You drove me to madness
And you’re nothing to me
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

It gets damn tiring
Watching people pretend to care
Use me ’til they’re tired and go away
Watch me tumble down
You’re gonna laugh
You pig, you’re gonna laugh
Gonna laugh ’til you cry!

You’re nothing to me, bitch
You’re nothing
You drove me to madness
And you’re nothing to me
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

All the times I’ve loved and lost before
All the times I’ve been alone
I get the numbers, they all turn off
Their phones
Sometimes I just want to know
What it feels like to be loved
To be kissed goodnight and know she’s somewhere
Thinkin’ about me
But it’s just a silly dream
A hopeless cause
A broken promise
A fleeting moment
And a lot of pain that can’t just go away
Can’t make it go away
Can’t make them go…
Away

So I watch her smile from across the room
They say my luck is changing soon
But things won’t change so long as they’re busy
Staying the same

I have played this song before
This place has that familiar smell
The friendly warmth of an old friend
The bitter taste of having been a fool
Again
I have played this song before
Far too many times
To think I’ll have the pleasure
Of never playing it again

There are ants at this picnic
But no icing on this cake
And it’s funny how the sugar sweetness
Turned into the salt that fills these tears
Get away from me, all of you
Don’t come back
Leave me alone, you aren’t worth
The rib you’re made from
Get away, get away from me!
Don’t come back
Don’t come back
Don’t come back

If I tell you all
Would you still reach for me tonight
And if I sit quietly
Will you still speak to me tonight
And if I cry
Would you take away my tears
Or say goodbye

If I search for you
Will you still be here in plain sight
And if I find you
Will you stay with me tonight
And if I cry
Would you take away my tears
Or say goodbye

If I hold you tight
Will you still love me tonight
And if I want for you
Will you still touch me tonight
And if I cry
Would you take away my tears
Or say goodbye

If I bear my soul
Will you still hold me tonight
And if I need you
Would you be here for me tonight
And if I cry
Would you take away my tears
Or say goodbye

Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Who says the human race is just

You’ve been pushing me down for months now
I’ve put things behind me, you know now
You know you need to put things behind you too
No matter how hard I try to set things straight
You keep bending them the wrong way again

You may want me but you can’t have me
You may think you’ve got it all figured out
You may not know just what you’re doing
May think you’re on the right road now
But the road turned and you drove forward
And you will whatever I do or say
But if you want me to let you back in my life
You’re gonna hafta stop driving me away

You’ve been pushing me down for months now
I’ve been living my life like I should now
You were never so hateful when I was in love
No matter how many times I wave the flag of peace
You keep stabbing and stabbing and stabbing and stabbing and…

You’ve justified your loss since I left you
You’ve killed every reason I would’ve had to stay
You may still love me through many tomorrows
But I love you less each passing day
I could have never meant to hurt you
But now I really don’t care if I do
The hate sure doesn’t live inside me
It’s got plenty of room in you

You may want me but you can’t have me
You may think you’ve got it all figured out
You may not know just what you’re doing
May think you’re on the right road now
But the road turned and you drove forward
And you will whatever I do or say
But if you want me to let you back in my life
You’re gonna hafta stop driving me away

You may want me but you can’t have me
You may think you’ve got it all figured out
You may not know just what you’re doing
May think you’re on the right road now
But the road turned and you drove forward
And you will whatever I do or say
But if you want me to let you back in my life
You’re gonna hafta stop driving me away

I mean so much to you?
Could’ve fooled me
Pushin’ me away, makin’ me mad
You know what you’re doin’
Don’t lie to me

I mean so much to you?
So friends must enjoy nowadays
Stabbing each other in the back
You know what you’re doin’
You know exactly what you’re doin’

Break me, make me
Into anything you want
Until the things you need
Are jabbed into my heart
It’s like an angry love song
Can’t you leave me alone?
With all this constant ringin’
You callin’ on the phone

So I mean so much to you?
Could’ve fooled me
You like hurting those you love?
You know what you’re doin’
Don’t lie to me

I mean so much to you?
I can tell by the way you won’t stop
Making me feel so bad
You know what you’re doin’
You know exactly what you’re doin’

Break me, make me
Into anything you want
Until the things you need
Are jabbed into my heart
It’s like an angry love song
Can’t you leave me alone?
With all this constant ringin’
You callin’ on the phone

F### your lies and
F### your false pretense
Who’s to say this
Justifies the ends
I shouldn’t write
About dark things as this
But when you taunt me
I just get so pissed

Strung along
All alone
And I feel so stoned
Cheated lives
Broken wives
Beneath the star-crossed skies

Chaotic feelings
Manifest as words
How can I sort
Through all this bulls### heard
F### it all, I
Just want to go home
I reached for you
But I was here alone

Time is gone
Bloody pawn
My God, it’s gone so wrong
Once again
We all lost
Cheated at what cost?

Dirtied burdens
Bore by time alone
I hear the ringing
Can’t pick up the phone
Screaming loudly
In the silent night
I hate to tell you
Looks like I was right

If you leave
Could I breathe?
Will you grant reprieve?
Help me please
Save my soul
With hearts black as coal

F### your lies and
F### your false pretense
F### the things that
You’ll say in the end
F### this song and
F### the things I do
F### emotion
Finally, f### you

F### your lies and
F### your false pretense
F### the soul that
Justifies these ends
F### the words and
F### the music too
F### emotion
Finally, f### you
F### emotion
Finally, f### you
Finally, f### you
Finally, f### you
Finally, f### you

Kill the past
Forget the thoughts of possibilities
Free at last
And you cannot fulfill my needs
All alone
I have nowhere else to go
I thought that I should
Love you, love you
Need you, need you

Help me please
‘Cause the feeling’s gone and I hate this song
So help me please
I know what I need and it’s you I breathe
So save my soul, I’m on a roll
But stuck in a hole

Valentines
That day is always hell for me
Out of time
My last of loves has turned on me
All alone
Where else is there for me to go
I think that now I
Love you, love you
Need you, need you

Help me please
‘Cause the feeling’s gone and I hate this song
So help me please
I know what I need and it’s you I breathe
So save my soul, I’m on a roll
But stuck in a hole

Stop my heart
What it feels now is irrelevant
In the start
Knew not how far my soul could bend
All alone
How is it that I was to know
I wish that I could
Love you, love you
Need you, need you

Help me please
‘Cause the feeling’s gone and I hate this song
So help me please
I know what I need and it’s you I breathe
So save my soul, I’m on a roll
But stuck in a hole

Maybe if I try hard enough
I can f### up again
And maybe if I don’t try at all
I can travel back to when
All I needed was a home
And all I wanted was a friend

Cause I’m trying to run
I’m trying to hide
I’m trying to learn
I’m trying to fly
I’m trying to live
Yet trying to die
This trying emotion
And feelings of mine

But then it falls to silence
Then you all go home
And I’m alone…I’m always alone

So maybe if I try hard enough
I can f### up again
And maybe if I don’t try at all
I can travel back to when
All I needed was a home
And all I wanted was a friend

Cause I’m trying to run
I’m trying to hide
I’m trying to learn
I’m trying to fly
I’m trying to live
Yet trying to die
This trying emotion
And feelings of mine

Look around
Look
DON’T ASK QUESTIONS JUST LOOK
Are you sure of what you see
Are you sure that it’s there
What the hell is faith?
How can you believe when you don’t know?
Why am I so damned uncertain?

Feel around
Feel
STOP THESE QUESTIONS AND FEEL
Prove that it can be done
Prove the heart still exists
What the hell is a heart?
How can you feel with that burnt out hole where your soul goes
And not be so uncertain?

Hear the sound
Hear
SHUT UP AND LISTEN, F###ING IDIOT
Is that really so hard
I can do it; I do it all the time
Is that why nobody cares?
Is that why I can’t care?
Is that why I’m so uncertain?

What the hell am I doing here?
What is the point?
Where is the meaning?
Where did I leave my soul?
Do you have it?
Do you know where I can find it?
Please help me to find my soul

What the hell is going on here?
What is the purpose?
How can you tell me that it all makes sense now
when you know damn well that it doesn’t?
Look into my eyes
So I know it’s all a lie
I said don’t lie to me
Please, don’t lie to me

Where the hell are you?
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me here all alone?
Look into my eyes
I dare you to look into my eyes
Tell me how you feel
Why can’t you tell me how you feel?

What the hell happened?
Where is my soul?
Where are you?
What happened to my life?
I want to know what happened
Why can’t you tell me what happened?
Is it you who is to blame?

There was a time when I loved you
There was a time when I cared
There was a time when I needed you
But you were never there
There was a time
When I thought you were special
There was a time
When I thought you cared
But you didn’t

There was a time when you left me alone
In the silent night
You stole my heart and crushed it
I was powerless to fight
There was a time
When I couldn’t live without you
There was a time
When I thought you gave a damn
But you didn’t

Someday you will figure out
That we were so very right
Someday you will understand
That what you did’s not right
And someday
You will come running back
And someday
You’ll think I’ll take you back
But I won’t

No…I wont

I’m lying here, awake in bed
Visions of you in my swirly head
Wondering silently, what went on
Have I simply been your pawn?

You used me in some liars game
Now things can’t ever be the same
You’ve destroyed me, made me mad
So I wonder if you’re really sad

I need you babe, here by my side
Without you I’d have rather died
Where are you babe? I need you now
Could it have been different somehow?

Oh why did I just go along
We were so right and you were wrong
Babe I need you with me now
Please God, just tell me how