Loser after loser after loser
They keep losing out on you
But haven’t you considered
Haven’t you ever thought that
Maybe, maybe maybe
You are your own reason

Every Mr. Right come into your life
You drive them straight away
You hurt them, you break them
You love them, you hate them
And you don’t seem to understand
How wrong you are

Maybe, maybe maybe
You are your own reason

Every Mr. Right come into your life
You drive them straight away
You hurt them, you break them
You love them, you hate them
And you don’t seem to understand
How wrong you are

Maybe, maybe maybe
You are your own reason

Every Mr. Right come into your life
You drive them straight away
You hurt them, you break them
You love them, you hate them
And you don’t seem to understand
How wrong you are

You know you love me but you just don’t care
I’ve tried to find you but you’re everywhere
Yeah you just won’t leave me alone

Tomorrow it’s back to the same old room
Same old phone that doesn’t ring
And I’ll be just so alone…
So alone
So alone right here next to you

You know you’ve got me and it just ain’t fair
You’re right beside me but you’re never there
Yeah you just won’t leave me alone

Tomorrow it’s back to the same old room
Same old phone that doesn’t ring
And I’ll be just so alone…
So alone
So alone right here next to you

I’m alone right here with you
I’m here alone
With you

What if I wanted to go out with a bang?
You know I’m not a fool
You think I’m crazy; I’m not the same
Man you knew in school
I might be sorry, but you don’t agree
I might be lonely, but you still have me

As usual

But
I’m going home
To the silence that lives in that place
I’m going home
To hide the tears that streak this face
I’m going home
I’m going home
Leave me alone

What if I never wanted to want this?
Well I need it in my life

As usual

But
I’m going home
To the life I lived long ago
I’m going home
To the only home I’ve ever known
I’m going home
I’m going home
Leave me alone

Tuesday morning, the blank sheet
Sits before me and the pen won’t move
Won’t you tell me what I’m missing?
Won’t you tell me how you feel?
Would you let me fall when I let go?
Would you ever let me know?

Please, I’m begging
Take this hand and hold it
Take this heart and know it
Take the chances, take the pain
Take the sun babe, take the rain

And if the water drowns you
And if the dampness creeps
And if the morning thunders
And if the anger seeps
Well morning dries those tears
And shelter hides those fears
Your tight lips press back
The darkness several years
So take the chances, take the pain
Take the sun babe, take the rain

Friday morning, and cold feet
Finally freeze my steps into ice
Won’t you hold me please, I’m slipping
Won’t you tell me how you feel?
Would I fall away when you let go?
Would you ever let me know?

Please, I’m begging
Take this hand and hold it
Take this heart and know it
Take the chances, take the pain
Take the sun babe, take the rain

And if the water drowns you
And if the dampness creeps
And if the morning thunders
And if the anger seeps
Well morning dries those tears
And shelter hides those fears
Your tight lips press back
The darkness several years
So take the chances, take the pain
Take the sun babe, take the rain

Take this hand and hold it
Take this heart and know it
Take the chances, take the pain
Take the sun babe, take the rain

She lays on a couch
In a basement
Somewhere in Southeast DC
Reading a Grisham novel
Far from home
We told each other our names
The reasons why we came
And in the end
We went our separate ways

So I may never see her again
May never hear her voice, see her smile
The story may be short and
Roads run long
There are jokes she may remember
There are lines you can’t forget
But memories may not last and
Rights go wrong

She sits at the corner
Of the table
On the far side of the room
Her curly hair still tied back
From her face
The time ran shorter still
We’ll do just what we will
And in the end
We went our separate ways

So I may never see her again
May never hear her voice, see her smile
The story may be short and
Roads run long
There are jokes she may remember
There are lines you can’t forget
But memories may not last and
Rights go wrong

We told each other our names
The reasons why we came
And in the end
We went our separate ways…

So many times, the same old story
Sometimes it gets just a little bit boring
The same old words, the same old songs
The same old things I’ve done all along
And I’m just too stubborn to let it go

The feelings still rise, then they still fall
The phone still rings those same old calls
The same old voices in the same old ears
The same old sorrows, the same old tears
And I’m just too stubborn to let it go

But who needs to let go anyway?
Half the fun is hanging on
Even if the good is all-but-gone
Who needs to let go anyway?
It’s all I have here left to hold
Though the story’s getting old
If nothing else, at least I still
Feel the cold

So many faces, all the new names
In the end they play this game the same
A little more act, a little less truth
A little less trust, a better-tied noose
And I’m far too stubborn to let it go

But who needs to let go anyway?
Half the fun is hanging on
Even if the good is all-but-gone
Who needs to let go anyway?
It’s all I have here left to hold
Though the story’s getting old
If nothing else, at least I still
Feel the cold

And though the story’s getting old
I could never let it go
And if nothing else I’ve not grown numb
To the cold…

She stood a little closer
Her hair brushed my arm
For a second, she looked at me
Dark eyes almost asking for what
She’d never want from me
She stood a little closer
Until she walked away

She will never love me
No-one ever will
That’s not that plan that’s been
For you or me
She’ll never hold my hand
Or mend this aching heart
How is one to finish
Without a start?

And she will never want me
To love or even care
That’s the last she’d ever want
From one like me
She’ll never hold me close
Prob’ly never call
It’s what I should expect
After all

It’s raining down highway 158
And I’m on the road again
Another pretty face, another town
Another race, another round

It’s evening in the mountains
Or it’s morning or it’s night
Another lost cause, another try
Another pause, another lie

A new set of highways
A new county, new state
A new set of feelings
Another promise I can make
And I can drive until I break
Down highway 158

It’s lonely here sometimes
Or it could be or it might
Another day alone, another call
Another trip, another fall

On that dead-end road again
I’ll be there soon enough
Another pretty face, another town
Another race, another round

A new set of highways
A new county, new state
A new set of feelings
Another promise I can make
And I can drive until I break
Down highway 158

Another pretty face, another town…

I’m not sayin’
I expect any of this to go anywhere
But hey, I’m always one
To give it a good go
I’ve never been accused
Of not trying hard enough
Even when I’m as tired of trying
As I am today
I’m not sayin’
Anything I haven’t said
A million times before

And I’m sittin’ here
In a glass cage in the middle of
A crowded room
A place where I can look
But never touch
I reach out
My breath just fogs the window
Nobody cares
Nobody even sees me
Looking back at them
With this fiery dream in my eye

‘Cause I’m not sayin’
Anything I haven’t said
A million times before

I’m not sayin’
I expect anything from any of this
But you’ve made me think that
Maybe it’s worth a try
I don’t know why I bother
To feel the way I do
When I’m as tired of trying
As I am today
I’m not sayin’
Anything I haven’t said
A million times before

So I’m sittin’ here
In a glass cage in the middle of
A crowded room
I can see the warmth I doubt
I’ll ever feel
I reach out
My breath just fogs the window
Nobody cares
Nobody even knows I’m there
Staring out at them
With colder and colder eyes

I’m not sayin’
I expect any of this
To go anywhere

It’s not much more than wishful thinking
Why would a girl like you
Ever dare to love me?
But I would never hurt you, girl
I would never make you cry
I know the fools that came before me
Make you scared to give a try
But you know

We could be magical
I’d show you love like you’ve never known
We could be magical
And neither of us would be alone
We could take our broken hearts
And build them back until we’re whole
We could share the joys and sorrows
Share the warmth and share the cold
We could be magical
You know

You know I’d never hurt you, girl
I’d give you truth among the lies
But all those fools who never loved you
Were far too young to recognize
They were fools, babe
They were fools to have hurt
An angel like you

And we could be magical
I’d show you love like you’ve never known
We could be magical
And neither of us would be alone
We could take our broken hearts
And build them back until we’re whole
We could share the joys and sorrows
Share the warmth and share the cold…

We could share the joys and sorrows
Share the warmth…
And share…
The cold…

So you passed on
Mr. Amazing
Showed him the door
Figures, with you
What do ya need him for?

So hold me for minute longer
Hold me ’til you can’t let go
Hold me ’til the sky falls down us
Hold me like I’ve never known

I’ve written a hundred songs about you
Never sung a single note
They were always on the tip of my tongue
I’ve dreamt a thousand dreams about you
Never told a single story
Buried them so deep, so deep inside
But here I am, standing before you
With arms open wide

So girl, you can take me or leave me
You can love me or lock me away
You can give me new songs to write
Or take away the words I say
Girl, you can

Her words slice into me, but she didn’t mean it like that
Or did she, I just don’t know anymore
I love her so much and she’s always knocking herself down
Or is she? I’m not sure anymore

There’s a skeleton hiding in her closet
And she always locks the door
She tells me that she trusts me
But I’m not sure anymore
Girl you hafta tell me what you’re hiding
I can’t take this anymore
Can’t take it anymore

Her words serve to confuse me, I could never love her less
Or could I? I just don’t know anymore
I need her so much, but why the hell can’t she trust me?
Or does she? I’m not sure anymore

There’s a skeleton hiding in her closet
And she always locks the door
She tells me that she trusts me
But I’m not sure anymore
Girl you hafta tell me what you’re hiding
I can’t take this anymore
Can’t take it anymore

Girl, tell me what you’re hiding

It’s eleven o’clock
And I don’t think I can see you anymore
I don’t think
I need you anymore
Baby you’ve lost it
You’ve lost it again
It’s eleven o’clock, baby
And you still haven’t called

The phone rings again
Damn it, I don’t want a magazine
I don’t think
I want it anymore
Baby you’ve lost it
You’ve lost it again
It’s eleven o’clock, baby
And you still haven’t called

Bouncing rubber ball
Bouncing rubber ball
Blinks when it bounces
Like any good one should

It’s eleven o’clock
For the second time today

Sitting here waiting for the phone to ring
Waiting for the birds to sing
But the birds aren’t singing anymore
You aren’t calling anymore

It’s happened again
It’s happened again
I never know when
It’s happened
It’s happened again

I wonder what I’ve done wrong
Have I written a song out of tune?
Have I howled too long at the moon?
What did I do to deserve
Not having you?

It’s happened again
It’s happened again
I never know when
It’s happened
It’s happened again
It’s happened again
I never know when
It’s happened
It’s happened

What did I do to deserve
Not having you
Again

Go on with your song, girl
Your lonely song, girl
Keep on singin’ just the way
You sung before
Even though I miss you
I will not try to reach you
I would never violate
That sacred trust

Go on with your song, girl
Don’t lose your song, girl
I’ve never tried to find, girl
Your reasons why
If we lose tomorrow
Or drown in silent sorrow
I never could forget you
Or what we shared

Go on with your song, girl
Your lonely song, girl
Don’t stop singin’ just the way
We sung before
Though the time is past now
I wish you would tell me how
To make everything like
It was before

Go on with your song, girl
Though it’s so wrong, girl
Don’t you know I would have given
You everything
I can’t stand to lose you
But now could never love you
Not after what you did
The heart you broke

I can’t stand to lose you
But now could never love you
I never could forget you
Or what we shared

Might just be a dream
Falsehood, premonition
Or a lover, a friend
Might be made of steel
Made of wood or gold

Yeah
Everybody’s got someone
They call home
Yeah
Everybody’s got someone
They call home
Yeah
Everybody’s got someone
They call home
You’re that someone
I call home

She came to me on the breeze
That circles the weathervanes
Leaving in her trail of loneliness
Those she pushed insane
So when she inhales
And it fills our sails
And we’re drifting silently to sleep
Don’t try to mind her
Don’t try to find her
Don’t try the mind she keeps

Oh, Amistha, you leave me lonely
Oh, Amistha, you leave me fear
Amistha told me she’d be different
Amistha’s words soaked into my ear

She came to me in darkness
Masquerading as a ray of light
Casting her shadow on daylight
That so long ago seemed to bright
So when she exhales
And the east wind fails
And we’re drifting our way out to sea
Don’t try to shake her
Don’t try to wake her
Don’t dream the dream she dreams

Oh, Amistha, you leave me alone
Oh, Amistha, you leave me needing
Amistha, you broke my heart again
Amistha left me singing
To her.

One day she appeared, beautiful as the California sunset
A sight to cause the heart to flutter, and the hands to sweat
But now you search for her and there’s nothin’ left
To hold on
Mmm, mmm, mmm

Her eyes gleam brightly like a million stars at night
And her songs can make you feel high as a kite
Yet somehow you know that she ain’t Ms. Right
Anymore
Mmm, mmm, mmm

And the sun drifts down o’er the Pacific
And you search, but for nothing specific
And they wonder how you get your kicks
But it’s clear you get them from me
And I see
Yes I see
What’s inside
Mmm, mmm, mmm

One day she appeared, beautiful as the California sunset
A sight to cause the heart to flutter, and the hands to sweat
But now it seems you haven’t destroyed me yet
No, not yet
Mmm, mmm, mmm

If I were the crying type
I think I would cry tonight
‘Cause I know I’ve lost again
My darkest thoughts were right
It’s not the first time I’ve been cheated
Out of things I’ve been searching for
I wonder if things will ever change
If I’ll ever win this war

The wind howls by the daybreak
The leaves rustle and blow by the road
There’s a chill that sneaks now up my spine
Is the devil hidden within you quite so bold?

See, I’m not the crying type
Yet you drive me near to tears
Love is supposed to be pleasant
Not so darkened by these fears
It’s not the first time I’ve fallen
Not the last time on the ground
Not the first time I’ve been lost
Nor the last time I’ll be found

And the wind howls by the daybreak
Why are you so haunted by the past?
Why do I always yearn for something
That will make me free at last?

Songs won’t change your heart
Even if I write ’til my hands bleed
Words won’t change your mind
If I speak until my voice cracks
My love can’t make you love me
You know I love you for all time
Nothing I can say, nothing I could do
Could make you need me too

There’s a yearning in my heart
For a life that I can’t have
I could play until I’m broken
Or cry until I laugh
But what will be will be
What’s done is done
And I’m left the lonely one
Always the lonely one

My love can’t make you love me
Even if I love you for all time
Nothing I can say, nothing I could do
Could make you need me too

There’s a yearning in my heart
For a life that I can’t have
I could play until I’m broken
Or cry until I laugh
But what will be will be
What’s done is done
And I’m left the lonely one
Always the lonely one

I want to know what you’re feeling
What flashes in your mind when I call
I want to know what you’re thinking
Do you feel this strong for me after all?
I want to know if you’ll teach me to smile
Like I’ve never smiled before
Girl, teach me to smile again.

I smile
Not a real smile
I cry
There’s nothing behind these tears
I run
I’m just tryin’ to escape
Alone
Shouldn’t be alone

Why aren’t you talking to me?

I speak
You don’t hear my words
Break down
All I’ve done is care
I scream
But the night remains silent
I love
Yet I’m still alone

Why aren’t you talking to me?

I run
But there is no escape
I cry
The same tears as before
I smile
But this one’s not real either
I look
And it seems I’m still alone

I sit down to write a song
And it turns out about you again
I don’t know what to do
Can’t get you out of my head
I wish that I could hold you so
I didn’t mean to fall for you
But how was I to know?

And I know I want you
More than anything
And if you give me this chance
A happier song I’ll sing

I see you once again
And I reach out for your heart
Sometimes it seems I’m all alone
And I don’t know where to start
I’d give anything to have you
Do anything for you
And if you want what’s in my heart
You know what to do

And I know I want you
More than anything
And if you give me this chance
A happier song I’ll sing

I can feel our emotions faltering
Maybe we’re not so sure of how we feel
So let’s kill the past
And start over with new beginnings
See where we lie at last

Don’t be so introspective
Don’t be so damned unclear
Don’t tell me that you love me
If you refuse to stand near

Some people say when the goin’ gets tough
Those are the moments when we shine
And some people say
Honesty is the best policy
And even today?

Don’t be so introspective
Don’t be so damned unclear
Don’t tell me that I’m safe
When I have so much to fear

Don’t be so introspective
Don’t be so damned unclear
Don’t tell me that you love me
If you refuse to stand near

Don’t be afraid to hurt me
It’s happened to me before
Don’t be afraid to leave
You can just close the door

Hopefully in the end I’ll be okay

I’m not afraid of pain
I’m not afraid of you
My life will go on
It’s all I can do

Hopefully in the end I’ll be okay

The poem didn’t mean a thing
Everything I’ve told you was wrong
You can walk away tonight
I’ll just write another sad song

But does that make it okay?

Does it?

You could’ve at least called
Could’ve been honest up front
What ever did I do to you
But give you endless love?

Driving up route 29
I call you on my phone
At this point I did not know
It’d be my last trip home
We exchange our friendly hellos
Pretending we’re still best friends
Sometimes I find myself wondering
If we’ll ever make amends
After moments conversation dies
We have run out of things to say
I wish you’d volunteer your thoughts
But I’ve got to go away

I’m going on my last trip home
My last time in your arms
I seriously never wanted
To do any harm
This is my last chance to love you
Your last chance to be mine
I just wish you would talk to me
Driving up route 29

Headed home one last time
But I can’t stand to do it
Having to look in your eyes
Heartstrings come unknit
The roads get more familiar
Places I know by heart
These things I cannot say to you
Feelings I must impart
I wish I could forget you
‘Cause I won’t see you again
There’s no hope for a friendship
‘Cause we’ll never make amends

I’m headed on my last trip home
My last chance in your arms
I really hope I didn’t
Cause you any harm
This is my last chance to need you
Your last chance to be mine
Why can’t you just talk to me
Driving up route 29

I see you for the last time
Engage in brief embrace
I still cannot get over
Your beautiful face
We talk, exchange life stories
For not too very long
Somehow deep inside we know
It’s gone so very wrong
Our one last chance to save it
And we didn’t make amends
If there’s one thing I have really learned
Friends aren’t really friends
No, friends aren’t really friends

I’m done with my last trip home
I held you in my arms
However could I have guessed
This would cause us so much harm
I get back on route 29
In the car I cry alone
Somehow deep inside I wish
This wasn’t my last trip home

I walk with well-faked confidence
While internally I shed my own tears
It’s amazing how I’ve figured out nothing
After all these heart-torn years
I’ve tried to be myself
I’ve tried being someone else
But year after year I fail
And put myself through hell

And so I look back on all the things I’ve felt
I don’t think there’s any way to escape
And so the pressure builds, pushed me to the edge
How many times can one heart break?

So I pray with well-learned confidence
If God can’t help me, then tell me just who can
It’s strange how much one can by hurt
It’s hard for someone like me to stand
I’ve tried to be friendly
I’ve tried to have a heart
But as a social outcast
I know not where to start

And now I’m feeling all the things I feel
My heart filling with all the fear and hate
I try as I might for some way to get out
How many times can one heart break?

I wrote you a letter
That I won’t ever send
It doesn’t make much sense now
Like it did to me back then
I wrote you a letter
That explains everything
About exactly how I feel
About the baggage that I bring
I wrote you a letter
And confessed to you my love
But I won’t ever send it
And I think I’ve said enough

No, wait, I haven’t
No, I haven’t said enough
I need to send this letter
And confess to you my love
You really ought to know
Understand, you do not
There’s no one else for me
You’re the one I want
So I’m sending you my letter
To confess to you my love
It’s about time you knew
And now I’ve said enough
Yes, I’ve finally said enough

Can’t they play one more slow song
Just one more tune to sway to
See, somehow I missed the last dance
And I am so in love with you
Life’s so full of opportunity missed
And we fulfill so very few
Can’t they play one more slow song
Another chance to hold you

So can’t they play one more slow song
Another chance to feel loved
Can’t they play one more slow song
So I’ll feel I’ve danced enough

Can’t they play one more slow song
Another emotion-charged hit
See, somehow I feel the night lacked
I can’t put my finger on it
But I think I know how to feel better
I think I know what’s wrong
All I think that they need to do
Is play another slow song

So can’t they play one more slow song
Another chance to feel loved
Can’t they play one more slow song
So I’ll feel I’ve danced enough

Can’t they play one more slow song
One more slow song is what we need
If they played just one more slow song
It’d be a wonderful night indeed
Why can’t they play one more slow song
I don’t want this night to be done
I want them to play another slow song
Am I the only one?
Am I the only one?

The last dance
Everyone dances the last dance
They hold their date close
And dance
The last dance
I wanted to dance my last dance
To hold you so close
And dance
The last dance
Oh why won’t you dance
The last dance

The last dance
Nobody skips the last dance
Why not just humor me
And dance
The last dance
Are you glad you deprived me
Of a happy ending
ohhhh, oh
My last dance
You wouldn’t allow
The last dance

The last dance
Was that the last dance?
Was that all there was?
It’s done
The last dance
It’s too late to go back
It’s too late to repair
It’s gone
The last dance
Long gone
The last dance

Long gone
The last dance

It’s the big day
The prom weekend
I’ve got too many
Emotions to defend
You’re here with me
But with me you’re not
Whatever happened
To the battles I fought?

There’s nothing left
That I can do
To win the heart
Of someone like you

There’s nothing left
That I can do
To win the heart
Of someone like you

Why must I feel the way I do
Always understanding
Always so confused
Why must I know the things I know
About utopia we’ve lost
About the life that I can’t have
Why can’t anybody
Understand like me
Feel just like me

It’s a crowded room
Filled with the ones I’ve loved
Does anybody else out there
Feel the way I do?

Why must I love the way I do
Always go all out
Always broken hearts
Why can’t I see what’s so wrong with me?
What did I miss?
Am I so blind?
Why can’t anybody
Love just like me
Feel just like me

Such a crowded room
Filled with the ones I’ve loved
Does anybody else out there
Feel the way I do?

Why can’t I love the way you do?
So superficial
Always so unreal
I’d never be hurt again
If I didn’t care
If I didn’t care
Why can’t I simply
Love just like you
Never feel like me

Damn this crowded room
Filled with the ones I’ve loved
Does anybody else out there
Feel the way I do?

Do you know how many times I’ve loved?
Do you know how much I’ve needed?
Do you know what it’s like to be broken
Over and over again?

I don’t know what it’s like to be loved
I don’t know what it’s like being needed
I just cannot explain to you
How alone I really am

Do you know what you’ve brought to my life?
Do you know what you’ve given to me?
It’s nothing more complicated
Than one more broken heart

Can you see what it’s like in my heart?
So barren and lonely and lost
Can you imagine how this would feel
Just a thousand broken hearts

Caring
It’s such a simple word
But I have lost my grasp
And I just don’t care
You can’t give me a reason
You can’t give me a cause
You cannot give me anything
That’s not already lost

Loving
Why can’t you answer
The question on the floor
It’s so damned simple
You can’t explain to me
You can’t convey to me
You cannot tell me anything
I don’t already see

So why don’t you tell me
So why don’t you love me
So why don’t you need me
Like I need you

Never before have I met someone like you
And when you confuse me I know not what to do
We were so right, could’ve been so much more
But year after year you’d close that door
I tried and tried with all my might
To keep from crying out in the night
For you

For you I would do almost anything
Dance, laugh, maybe even sing
For you I would gladly risk my life
Put myself through pain and strife
For you I would put my feelings aside
Then huddle up and slowly die
And I’d die a happy man
Knowing it was all
For you

Sometimes it seems you’ll rip me apart
Yet I always feel the pain when we part
I wish I knew what I was doin’ wrong
Or that you could teach me a happier song
Girl, there isn’t much I can do
But sit around wanting
For you

For you I would do almost anything
Dance, laugh, maybe even sing
For you I would gladly risk my life
Put myself through pain and strife
For you I would put my feelings aside
Then huddle up and slowly die
And I’d die a happy man
Knowing it was all
For you

Long years ago you stole my heart
With all your beauty, personality, and smarts
You truly are one of a kind
I can’t get you out of my mind
You’re the opposite of run-of-the-mill
And no matter what you do I’ll love you still
Don’t forget that if you ever need me
I’ll still be standing here
Waiting
For you

Hey
I need you
You are the one
Perfect for me
I need you

Hey
C’mon now
Stand here by me
Just right for me
C’mon now

Hey
Please be mine
Just be here for me
Oh why can’t you see
I need you

HEY (hey hey hey)
Don’t leave me all alone
Don’t leave me here alone
Don’t let me be alone
Must I be alone?

Hey
I need you

Something’s going on here
I can’t say what exactly
Nobody will tell me
Nobody will help me
Nobody feels me
Because I’m here alone

What is going on here?
Why the big secret?
Please just tell me
Please just help me
Please feel me
‘Cause I’m all alone

Damnit I need you
But you sit there in silence
Why don’t you just tell me?
Why not just help me?
I need you to feel me
Please don’t let me die alone

Alone, alone, alone
Must I be alone?